Escaping the Storm

I am not ashamed to admit that this past 6 months created a vortex of powerlessness in my life.  Life was no longer in my own hands, and I feared. This past 6 months has been a period of war and terrorism on the national level, and on the personal and familial levels exceptionally difficult life decisions and changes were made. Basically one huge non-stop tsunami of events culminating in a depressed sense of living a life out of control.

Only recently did I consciously decide to take back control over my own life. I cannot control events occurring around me, but I can control my reaction to them, and therefore my own personal experience.

Every single one of us is in control of our own personal experience. Our thoughts create our realities. Joy begets joy, angst beget angst, hopelessness begets hopelessness. I begot hopelessness.

Life became hopeless, no silver lining in sight. It is an exhausting way to live.

Finally, after hitting my rock bottom, a few times over, I said to myself, "ENOUGH!", this was no way to live and certainly no way to raise a family. I made one single change, the hardest step to take yet the easiest thing to do. From there, things very quickly began to come together to create scenarios allowing the flow of positivity in my life.

I made the decision to no longer be a victim, to own my life. That was it. It took me about a week to actually believe in my decision, culminating in a week of starts and regressions, but then the understanding seeped into my core.

As a victim, one has no sense of control, life lives you, you do not live life. You are thrown around in the storm of external circumstances and life is hard. So hard, in fact, that it lends to the creation of excuses to escape. As a victim, you can't change life, therefore, you choose to run away. Addictions such as food, alcohol, drugs, gambling, shopping, and pains such as dis-ease, eating disorders, depression easily prevail in this realm. You are out of control, your life is out of control and those are just some ways to express that.  Whatever your ego can do to create a reality of your own personal hopelessness and victimization is what becomes physically expressed. Life sucks. I know.

So I was there. This past 6 months was just awful as I flailed around in an awfully dark storm.

But once I realized that I had turned myself into a victim, that was the moment that everything began to change. I realized that I had a choice to make. I could keep my status quo. Continue in my poor me experience, or, I could empower myself and become my own conscious manifestor. For the first time in FOREVER, I chose to become my own manifestor.

As this choice settled in, I found that I could no longer make decisions as I had in the past. I now own my decisions. I cannot be a victim to life and experience, because frankly, I am not. We each create our own reality. Default decisions that I used to make, stopped being automatic, no more escaping whenever things got bad. That was the victim in me. I am no longer a victim of my own creation.

This decision was a personal one. It came from within myself after much meditation, Reiki and soul searching. I had met a dormant aspect of myself and spent quite a while working to revive and reunite this aspect with the present me. It took some time, but when I was ready, that aspect, long swept into a corner woke up and re-connected with me.

For this past few weeks, I have re-membered how to flow. I am not implying that there is no hardship along the way, that would be an outright lie, but rather than fighting, I am flowing. Rather than being pulled back into the abyss, I am learning important lessons and empowering myself.

This is the beginning of my wholeness. This is being alive rather than just living. This is the beginning of my Bliss.

* Painting by Ira Mitchell: Look for the silver lining - http://www.paintingsilove.com/image/show/116107/look-for-the-silver-lining

Safra Turner-Granot is a Reiki Master and healer. She has been practicing Reiki for over 15 years and specializes in distance healing, working with children with ADHD and alleviating pain for individuals with terminal illness and for loved ones transitioning through the pre- and post- death grieving period. Safra is a lover of all things nature and is strongly connected to our natural environment. This lucky lady is married to one sexy papa and mother to one rockin' little monkey.

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